Am I where I want to be?10:50 Jan 25th, 2009 | 0 notes
I’ve never been where I want to be, but I’m on my way. I used to see things for how they should be. In order to try to get to where I wanted to be, I lived my life for how I thought things should be. But reality is much different. I still want to attain my goals, and I still want to get where I want to be. I always pride myself on my insight — my ability to step outside the box and see things for what they really are. I never caught on to this until recently, though. In order to attain my goals, I have to live my life for how things are, not how I wish them to be. People are superficial — it’s a fact. If I want to get ahead, I have to be attractive. It’s not utopian, but it is reality. I have to play the game if I want to win. I have to skip that snack. I have to eat healthy. Politics is a sickening subject. I can be angry, I can debate, I can write letters. At the end of the day, though, I have to live my life down here with the common folk. Money is hard to come by. I talked to my Dad today and it was an eye opener. He has to eat into his savings to get by day to day. His retirement income is not enough. I should treasure the fact that I earn what I earn. And lastly, when I write a rather long tumblr post addressed to a generalized You, I should go back and replace all the Yous with Is and Mes. The pressure to change my life for the better is on me, not you. So me is where I’ve started this time around. |
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